It's been a long time..

- Dead fish at the shore of Perhentian Island-

It's been a long time i didn't blog, not even login to check friend's updates.. Which also mean that I had happy time for the past few months..

Recently I find myself a lil bit out of control, no matter it's in work, in money or in relationship..

I've mixed feeling in my relationship:

Feeling tired and have no guts to face problems that occur in relationship,

heart kept on telling me I should have give up if i'm feeling so tired, I don't have to force myself to take all these. But in my brain, I know i've to hold it on..

We both meet, I consider it's our fate.

Being in a relationship is a huge test for both participants.

When i'm mad, I just keep it to myself, I angry to myself, and this is so NOT me..

This happened because the other participant is you? or I've changed?

I'm spending alot after getting salary:

Because I met problems, I was under pressure, what i can do is just spend a lil money to buy something that I like, just to make myself feeling a lil better.

And also, why I don't mind spending with you and spend for you?

I guess i'm out of my mind.

This month is a tough month for me, after 23years of life, this month is the first month that makes me check the price before I order any food.

It's worth it, I save for my bigger plan that will hold in this month end.

Looking forward to it.. Hope everything goes as my plan.

I'm facing alot of problems which comes from two guys:

1 is my ex, he's giving me alot of pressure and alot of problems.

I went for a drink with him, once, then he kept on looking for me after that.

Go his house to drink soup, go for dinner, go chill, etc..

When he asks me to go drink during weekend, I usually don't really like beer, so i'll reject,

when i reject, he'll tell me that why I can go for drink with my friends but not him. OMG, can't take it..

In msn, he says wanna chat, as a friend, i chat with him, then he opens some stupid topics + comments and ideas that i totally find it's childish and pointless, when i tell him back, he said i don't understand pulak. Brother, what the fuck do you want actually?

I tried just to answer "ok, OK, uhuh.." then he'll say i'm not sincere to chat with him.

Save me GOD, or i should say..

SAVE HIM GOD..!!

2nd guy is a guy who got my phone number from my evaluation form that i've filled in Studio R Sunway Pyramid few days ago.

This guy, a malay guy, text me saying that he wanna be a friend with me. Hmmm, just a friend, of course no problem.

But i found him acting weirdly than before.

He wants to know whether i'm home already, he wants me to inform him when i'm home, he wants to know what i'm doing, he wants to know EVERYTHING..!!!!

OMG, I can hardly take it, i'm not your gf, why the fuck you care what i'm doing or whether I reach home or not?

I HATE STICKY GUY..!!!!

**p.s: Now the problem is, how to get rid of him??