It's been a long time..

- Dead fish at the shore of Perhentian Island-

It's been a long time i didn't blog, not even login to check friend's updates.. Which also mean that I had happy time for the past few months..

Recently I find myself a lil bit out of control, no matter it's in work, in money or in relationship..

I've mixed feeling in my relationship:

Feeling tired and have no guts to face problems that occur in relationship,

heart kept on telling me I should have give up if i'm feeling so tired, I don't have to force myself to take all these. But in my brain, I know i've to hold it on..

We both meet, I consider it's our fate.

Being in a relationship is a huge test for both participants.

When i'm mad, I just keep it to myself, I angry to myself, and this is so NOT me..

This happened because the other participant is you? or I've changed?

I'm spending alot after getting salary:

Because I met problems, I was under pressure, what i can do is just spend a lil money to buy something that I like, just to make myself feeling a lil better.

And also, why I don't mind spending with you and spend for you?

I guess i'm out of my mind.

This month is a tough month for me, after 23years of life, this month is the first month that makes me check the price before I order any food.

It's worth it, I save for my bigger plan that will hold in this month end.

Looking forward to it.. Hope everything goes as my plan.

I'm facing alot of problems which comes from two guys:

1 is my ex, he's giving me alot of pressure and alot of problems.

I went for a drink with him, once, then he kept on looking for me after that.

Go his house to drink soup, go for dinner, go chill, etc..

When he asks me to go drink during weekend, I usually don't really like beer, so i'll reject,

when i reject, he'll tell me that why I can go for drink with my friends but not him. OMG, can't take it..

In msn, he says wanna chat, as a friend, i chat with him, then he opens some stupid topics + comments and ideas that i totally find it's childish and pointless, when i tell him back, he said i don't understand pulak. Brother, what the fuck do you want actually?

I tried just to answer "ok, OK, uhuh.." then he'll say i'm not sincere to chat with him.

Save me GOD, or i should say..

SAVE HIM GOD..!!

2nd guy is a guy who got my phone number from my evaluation form that i've filled in Studio R Sunway Pyramid few days ago.

This guy, a malay guy, text me saying that he wanna be a friend with me. Hmmm, just a friend, of course no problem.

But i found him acting weirdly than before.

He wants to know whether i'm home already, he wants me to inform him when i'm home, he wants to know what i'm doing, he wants to know EVERYTHING..!!!!

OMG, I can hardly take it, i'm not your gf, why the fuck you care what i'm doing or whether I reach home or not?

I HATE STICKY GUY..!!!!

**p.s: Now the problem is, how to get rid of him??

真相

一直在等你, 但原来你根本就不在乎;

我, 原来什么都不是....

分开吧..

预知的未来

病情越来越严重,

药物导致体重迅速增加,

难以接受的事实,

应该说是无法接受的事实;

说实在的,

我不知道该用那些心情来面对这无法改变的未来;

不用多久,

我就会变成大肥婆;

准备好心情,

面对即将来临的批评吧..!!!!

新一年

在新的一年, 我的愿望, 就只有两个;

一, 每个人都可以只得小病, 大病就免了(也包括我自己在内);

二, 每个人心想都事成(但好像有点不可能);

这两个愿望都有私心,

其实就只想自己的病好起来;

那天医生给我打了支针,

病情明显有了好转,

但医生说这只是暂时性的好转而已,

自己很意外地再拥有回不知多少年前有过的外观;

在那短短的一两个星期里,

我尽量穿我之前买, 但过后又不能穿的衣物;

那时候的心情即兴奋又忧虑,

兴奋因为我又回到过去,

忧虑是因为知道这光辉将不会持久;

可以给我一个好起来的机会,

让我做个平凡的女孩吗....

一起走过的日子

一天一天地过去;
距离那天的日子越来越近;
心情越来越沉重;
心情越来越复杂;

你我相识的日子不算长;
就只有那区区的5个月;
但感觉上;
我们就犹如旧友重逢般;

一进公司,
幸好有你们3个;
对一个人生地不熟的人而言,
那何止是个安慰,
那简直是一种个鼓励..!!!!

明天就是你们的最后一天了;
知道你们等待这天的来临等到"颈都长"了;
而我, 却不想这一天到来;

时间还是一分一秒地过去,
心中的不舍,
对一个爱装潇洒的我来说,
你又要我如何说出口呢..

带着依依不舍的心情,
但又得装作若无其事的样子和你们告别,
难受啊..!!!!

但你们脱离了苦海,
我也替你们高兴;

这一论部落格,
我知道你们三个,
只有一个读得明白;

谢谢你,
谢谢你们;
你们不会被遗忘;
尤其是你;
就是你;

First Halloween Night

Have you heard of The Library??

If you never, then u must click on to http://www.google.com/ search for "The Library"..

The Library which is stated in The Curve, Damansara..

It was my 1st time there yesterday nite;
It was the HALLOWEEN night;

It was the BEER night;

It was an UNFORGETABLE night;

Sitting at a tall table;
Listening to the songs that everyone knows;

Singing out loud and shouting out loud;

Laughing out crazily like nobody cares;

2 people 2 jugs;

It's not too much;

It's the limit;

It made people high;

It made people brave;

It made people tells the secrets in their heart;

People fainted;
People fell;

People chasing people with big knife;

I saw nurse;

I saw angel;

I saw a man with a shy and nervous nite;

I felt happy;

I felt glad;

I felt excited;

I felt shy;

I thx you for all the plans..

Thank you..

不同的日子

单身的日子难过?

这时候就是朋友进军你世界的时候;

单身的日子并不难过;

而且还让我觉得自由自在;

去哪儿不用交代;

跟谁去不用交代;

乱说话不用负责;

行为不必检点;

感谢你还记得我;

感谢你还爱着我;

我还是觉得单身适合我;

加油吧朋友..!!!!