好想回家

好想回家。。

命运

风筝的命运, 在于双方玩家如何抄控

很常吵架..

仅仅三个月, 连分手都闹过..

是我们都长大了吗? 还是我们不适合??

这次又能撑多久?

家人已习惯了, 我也开始累了..

但这事情总不能勉强..

你存在, 我深深的脑海里..

我的梦里, 我的心里, 我的歌声里....

挣扎但温柔的重生

在挣扎中，出现了一双温柔手；

平静而有力地说，交给我吧；

就这样，慢慢地，

脱离了；

虽说阴影还在，

虽说回忆还在，

虽说感觉仍还在。。。。

呼吸越来越近，

心跳越来越强，

双臂越来越壮，

我，越来越爱。。。。

在挣扎中，出现了一双温柔手。。

Past, Present and Future

It's been nearly a year..
12th July 2011, you told me that you wanted to break up..
We sat in the car, I cried, begging you for not leaving me..
We've come to an agreement which we will only be couple when we meet.

Solution last for a few months til October when we went to Shelvy's wedding dinner in Kuantan..
You said the feeling is back, I was so happy and touched thinking that my wish has came true, effort was not wasted..
Who knows it was just a false alarm, things went back to the begining..
Life goes on~~~~

Until a beggar appear in my life..
A guy who has nothing but a very powerful mind and soul to achieve future life..
I've never met this kind of person before, caught my eyes..
I gave up on the half dead situation which last for so called 2 years+..
I started a whole new life on the 15th May 2012.. ^^

Bad turns Worse

I'm just unhappy..

He said I crossed his limit again..

I don't know what is your limit,

I just know that you didn't pull me when i'm falling..

Valentine's Day

Yeah it's Valentine's Day,

but it's the worst Valentine's Day I've ever had..

Came back to Kuching from CNY 1 week earlier than other Chinese colleagues,

worked with 2 juniors, I was asked to finish a few tasks during the week when seniors are not here.

I followed what they taught,

I did what they asked,

But because of my stupidness,

I failed to do what I was asked to do thinking that I did it well..

Today is Valentine's Day, thought of going back early to have a nice rest,

who knows, it's 8pm now, we are still working,

just because of my failure..

Seniors didn't scold me, but I do feel really guilty in my heart..

Confusion:

1. Why didn't they tell me that there are still so many things that I need to check with the vendor?

2. Am I the only 1 who is standing at the wrong side?

Think gonna work on tomorrow also.. Sigh..

Happy Valentine's Day & Happy Hari Prophet Muhammad(tomorrow).

The last thing that I ever wanna do to you

Near to Christmas....

I made you a call with a sweet mindset;

You ended it with a hurt reason;

You put the blame on me,

Saying that you lied was because of my reaction and attitude..

I..

Never chase you for calls..

Never request anything much..

You..

Wanna go club, I never say no..

Wanna go drink, I never say no..

Comparing to other girls,

Not many of them can do what I can do..

Just because of 1 sentence I always say..

"Don't go home so late.."

You came out with a sentence that hurts me the most..

The very last thing I want to do to you:

I never want you to feel pressure..

I never want you to feel uncomfortable..

But after what I've done,

The freedom I gave..

And this is what I get at the end..

A hurt year end..

- I miss you, but i've got no guts to tell you -

- I worry about you, but i'm not dare to call you -