Past, Present and Future

It's been nearly a year..
12th July 2011, you told me that you wanted to break up..
We sat in the car, I cried, begging you for not leaving me..
We've come to an agreement which we will only be couple when we meet.

Solution last for a few months til October when we went to Shelvy's wedding dinner in Kuantan..
You said the feeling is back, I was so happy and touched thinking that my wish has came true, effort was not wasted..
Who knows it was just a false alarm, things went back to the begining..
Life goes on~~~~

Until a beggar appear in my life..
A guy who has nothing but a very powerful mind and soul to achieve future life..
I've never met this kind of person before, caught my eyes..
I gave up on the half dead situation which last for so called 2 years+..
I started a whole new life on the 15th May 2012.. ^^

Bad turns Worse

I'm just unhappy..

He said I crossed his limit again..

I don't know what is your limit,

I just know that you didn't pull me when i'm falling..

Valentine's Day

Yeah it's Valentine's Day,

but it's the worst Valentine's Day I've ever had..

Came back to Kuching from CNY 1 week earlier than other Chinese colleagues,

worked with 2 juniors, I was asked to finish a few tasks during the week when seniors are not here.

I followed what they taught,

I did what they asked,

But because of my stupidness,

I failed to do what I was asked to do thinking that I did it well..

Today is Valentine's Day, thought of going back early to have a nice rest,

who knows, it's 8pm now, we are still working,

just because of my failure..

Seniors didn't scold me, but I do feel really guilty in my heart..

Confusion:

1. Why didn't they tell me that there are still so many things that I need to check with the vendor?

2. Am I the only 1 who is standing at the wrong side?

Think gonna work on tomorrow also.. Sigh..

Happy Valentine's Day & Happy Hari Prophet Muhammad(tomorrow).

The last thing that I ever wanna do to you

Near to Christmas....

I made you a call with a sweet mindset;

You ended it with a hurt reason;

You put the blame on me,

Saying that you lied was because of my reaction and attitude..

I..

Never chase you for calls..

Never request anything much..

You..

Wanna go club, I never say no..

Wanna go drink, I never say no..

Comparing to other girls,

Not many of them can do what I can do..

Just because of 1 sentence I always say..

"Don't go home so late.."

You came out with a sentence that hurts me the most..

The very last thing I want to do to you:

I never want you to feel pressure..

I never want you to feel uncomfortable..

But after what I've done,

The freedom I gave..

And this is what I get at the end..

A hurt year end..

- I miss you, but i've got no guts to tell you -

- I worry about you, but i'm not dare to call you -

Motha Fucka

*$(#&%@$#)(%@(*#$

Nobody wants to go for dinner AGAIN..!!!!

HATE WORKAHOLICS..!!!!

Moody Halloween

I can still remember clearly the past halloween I had with a very special person..

This is the 2nd halloween I'm having now but with a totally different feeling..

I woke up at 11am, went for brunch and went to work..

Time passed fast, still have alot to do, 2 fuckers went to church at 6pm, left all the work behind..

They came back at 7pm and continue with the work..

Wai Kit off and gets online back for few times, but I still remain online until 9.45pm..

No dinner, not even feeling hungry, but still followed the team to "dinner"..

Very tired but still remember today is a special night - the Halloween night..

No more special person,

No activities,

No nothing..

Everyone has their own plans..

Enjoying themselves with alcohol, make ups and costumes..

Made a call to Xin to wish him happy birthday and sorry for not showing up at @live..

So BORING~~~~

Worst halloween that I've ever had..

"Celebrating" it with 3 workaholicS with work..

Lifeless Z.O.M.B.I.E

Hate to work with workaholic..

Should I say, workaholicS..!!!!

Working without looking at the time,

working without feeling hungry,

working without feeling tired..

Their lifes are so boring..

Working, working and working..

Hey hey come on,

can't you just do something else??

Couldn't imagine my 6months life staying with them..

HELP~~~~

I wanna go back to KL....!!!!

I want my life back....!!!!